The secret truth of life: Everything Is Everything

Travel with me, to a story that my brain consciousness, that my memory power, that my thinking ability do not even want to take as possible. At same time logically I know that it is fact.

But it just goes too far and then my brain consciousness does not even want to think about it, does not even does not want to remember it, does not want to calculate about it.

At the same time, even a little bit of memory of it is so extreme exciting, always there tickling me, telling me there is something I are aware of and I understand about it and it is not just my fear and it has a name.

It is a whole entire awareness that covers all the logic and at the same time because it belongs to all that same logic it almost sounds impossible to believe.

How does it start?

It starts in a moment of my life. The moment I experienced how to concentrate my awareness to make all my body energy join together and stay with a pure intention and whatever is my pure intention it opens all 7 types of chakra energy inside of me.

I had experienced this many, many times but never as extreme as this unknown experience which was completely full open 7 chakra for the first time ever for myself. At the time I do not even know what it will be like or what does it mean.

It is not until a long, long time after when I realized that is the idea of completely open 7 chakra energy centers.

Mountains

Once I travelled into the mountains with Roger and some of my other students. But after awhile I lost them. Because I feel a really strong energy open, even though I lost them I was not really searching for then. In fact I lost them for almost the whole day.

I did not know it at the time, but they would not find me for 8 hours after this. We were in a big forest and they thought that I was in front of them so they kept chasing forward to find me. But actually I was behind them the whole time but they did not even know that.

After awhile I stopped in a place where I can see a waterfall not far from me. A river flows gently past as the scent of a fresh shower on the whole forest fills the air. I notice everything is wet, shining light from the sun reflects off the droplets of water around me. I feel my whole body just naturally does not want to move as I have too much energy to do that. I sit and watch the direction of the waterfall, the sun and the forest.

Just at the moment I settle into the Lotus pose, suddenly I feel the force of gravity into all my nerves and like a root it shoots into the ground spreading out I feel my body connect to the whole forest. I become the united power of gravity, catching everything as a still force but it remains moving and changing at the same time. After this connection I lose my thinking ability.

The energy grows stronger the more concentrated I get to feel that united power of gravity. The whole united power just explodes shooting so extremely I feel like there is a bomb exploding in many parts of my body at the same time. I lift up my hand but I see in a split second it has changed 100 thousand times. Imagine they are built by a light, energy sand and a powerful windstorm strips it away, but a new one grows back in it’s place but even that gets taken away again. 100 thousand times in a split second.

There is no hand but new energy rebuild the hand shape in energy where it was before. I know my eyes are now into a stage of seeing something I have never seen before. Amazing illusion being with unlimited speed. Then I look around, my full body, the whole forest is like that.

There is a crazy magic power so fast in that sound already make everything appear and disappear 100 million times. That’s what scientists explain as atomic speed. I start to realize that they are not just words, visual can actually be aware of that speed, aware of that power, and I try to feel that change.

I want to know what is that changing power so I concentrate so strongly I catch the power of the speed moving feeling, WHOOOOOA, then my consciousness is out of my body and into that speed I become the atom, the speed, the illusion being. I’m into that sound and I travel across the forest, every piece, every tree, leaf, rock, pass through the river, pass through everything in one second.

I was astonished to be aware of that speed and then back to my body. At the same time still aware of that speed is happening to my body and then all these shooting lights come out of my body I don’t see the vision of the forest any more I start to see just high speed energy moving around.

I try to understand, what is the essence of that moving speed. Then suddenly I’m into the moving speed centre what I see is something that is hard to describe. Something colorful, something appears like it can be like everything but disappears right away like it never existed. In one split second I can’t count how many times it changes. Then I start to observe it deeper, and realize there is nothing there.

So because nothing is there it accepts everything to appear and disappear and that appear and disappear is a power of illusion and changing so I aware everything is everything.

Everything is that changing power.

And then while I am continually aware all the changing power, the essence is empty. If it is not empty, the essence is something, then it will stay the same it will not change. Because it is empty so it can create temporary illusion like something there.

And because truly empty so nothing can stay it disappear, but because the illusion constantly want to stay as illusion then it remain there. Appear and disappear the whole universe is in the power of that illusion appear and disappear.

And then I realize. All the essence is the same, it is not the power that appears and disappear it is the power that accepts the appearing and disappearing and all of this is not in my brain consciousness. I was in a stage of deep heart so my heart aware of that.

My heart understand the essence behind all the change is that same as all the changing I went into a stage of meditation. Everything is everything. Everything is emptiness that allows illusion being to appear and disappear and constantly change.

After that I start to forget I am a human.

After that of course I don’t even think I am in the earth, after that I feel a strong united feeling and my heart I am existing with all this essence and all this changing power.

Then I into a stage when I start to forget my identity and no thinking except directly aware life is this power, this capability to accept everything appear and disappear constantly changing and that is happening in the whole forest, in whole universe and then I start to laugh.

I start to laugh. I feel such an amazing release and I realize all I take so serious before was really just blind illusion. An illusion of illusion I created. Suddenly I feel amazing joy totally free like suddenly after being trapped in a jail of million lifetime you get told you will be released forever.

I have never tasted that feeling in my life and I realize that I have the wisdom ability to see why they say life is empty, life is illusion and why everybody is trapped and create even more illusion.

That free make me realize the freedom is in every life if they understand and see through all and then we will join them amazing joy from their heart.

So that joy heart to aware the essence and we are all the same we all same existing without form but have a form to communicate, form to believe there is something we create a form and from then we create illusion. Then illusion become so strong become illusion being.

Same level of consciousness create same dream, same illusion being.

That was the stage of meditation that joyful heart aware of that truth and in the moment I read that joy, its only a free and light content feeling I’m not aware of the illusion anymore I not aware there is empty something except that illusion disappear and appear.

I become that pure that joyful aware consciousness. I realize that every life has same consciousness, same freedom and same joy, and to realize that every life have ability to make the joy even bigger.

Now not only feel totally free, total content realize life is perfect because consciousness not only me can see through illusion and see that is in every life.

And to feel all life have this power make me feel life is totally fair and content and perfect.

When I was just in this first stage I forgot who I am, where I am and not even see the changing power, I forgot the forest, my human body, I suddenly aware space, where all I see is joyful life and unlimited freedom and then being there

Then I get big sharky feeling.

BANG – EXPLODE!!!

It’s a sound not from outside its not a sound from somewhere inside it is a sound of everywhere inside and outside every piece whatever you can be aware of. A feeling so quick, so shocking, Its a feeling the sound of everything that has ever existed tearing apart so there is nothing left!

So one side now I totally in content meditation. But other side so sharky so strong make we want to create the most scary hell into my own heart I start to have no knowledge . My logic I don’t know I am human I just pure joy existing.

Suddenly scary sound tear every part of my nerve from every angle you feel you die one billion times. Each tearing explode sound its like the sound of torture and then a silent sound from inside, a meaning I know from my subconsciousness  appear to support me.

No fear.

Life is empty. Fear is the illusion. And that sound without words, without any sound but directly has the same meaning support me. I pass through the explosion sound and tearing feeling and realize I was inside a big bang I saw the universe the day it was born.

And that sound came from earth of excitement of the universe it twists and explode and at the same time 360 degree every angle shooting out sound, extremely massive energy and each energy unites and combines to make the idea humans call a galaxy.

My consciousness because it is supported by no fear and be empty I actually become the centre of that explosion. The explosion centre is my eyes, can watch every angle, watch every galaxy go far from me. Keep twisting and keep turning around and explode out. At the same time never repeat.

Then when I’m aware of all the galaxy, <shooting sound> the galaxy connect to my sky eyes, my seeing consciousness ability, it become also 3D, can see from every angle, suddenly I have one billion eyes and each eye can see all the other galaxy as my eyes and keep twisting keep changing, billion view of billion different awareness, multiplied together,  non-stop changing.

In a delicate, peaceful and wise voice he says “I start to feel eternal.”

Because that power not only just constantly changing in unlimited ways also there is a power that feels that explode, that twist, that is never going to stop. Never going to stop then test the words only ever aware of before as written down, or thought about. But now it is a feeling, it’s a true feeling when you leave without time but constantly feel content and power, never going to stop.

My consciousness taste eternity.

It is more than words it is awareness. Then my awareness feel eternity and then my ego explode.

In a deep powerful voice he realizes “I am God. I aware all the galaxies. I am the centre observing every space that appears.”

When your consciousness can aware the universe from every angle you are actually don’t have doubt you are god. It’s a natural feeling. That eternity power you are aware of is you.

You have power stay as long as that power continue explodes and twists. You feel that power never going to stop. Whatever you aware is whatever you are. That’s why I can use them as my eyes. I totally don’t remember human at all. I probably don’t even remember my name, my ego is really happy and content.

So what happened?

Whenever a consciousness into that stage it is really out of human being knowledge can think of it. And you would not even think human beings exist if you could see galaxy like that. If you are existing with them at the same time that power is you. Your natural feeling is you are everything, and you are everything, you aware of all, you aware you are god.

Then I have a feeling. Where is that subconscious feeling that causes “I am god” where it come from. None of this was in language, all of this in my subconscious directly sending message. But to tell you what happened I have to make those subconscious messages into speaking words.

But truly there was no words except that amazing view of one billion galaxies with one billion angles multiplied, and then extreme self-confidence, content, happy ego, I am god, without any doubt. Just content and stay there.

But the moment when there is a content there is not even something that can compare. When you think you are aware of everything as god, the highest, no any feeling to bring up feeling that there is more. At the moment you feel you are fearless, you have the most complete freedom to be aware of the existing of the universe in unlimited ways.

Something really scary happened, <In a loud, nervous, fearful voice> I see all the exploded out galaxy come back but faster than it exploded and feel like I am the centre seeing them come back and then one billion times faster and scarier than any bomb or bullet everything I am aware of starts shooting back and explode brrrrrr in extreme speed hit into my centre.

Then I realize Woah my ego thinks I am god, it was wrong: Now I’m dying. I’m being punished by the whole universe, which is smashing me.

I’m scared to death.

If your subconsciousness does not have the power to handle it you will create a hell for yourself right then and then you will reincarnate into that hell because of your fear for many lifetimes until you get out of it.

Even god get scared because universe get destroyed, shrunk back faster than explosion, you get smashed as centre, it going to create billion kind of hell in your own heart so my fear is rising. But the moment when I feel I really die, the universe die, being a god and ego die, get smashed I heard a sound.

<In a deep, complete content, powerful and compassionate, spiritual, holy, joyful, wild but with control, voice>

Ooooooohhhhhhhhmmmmmmm

A sound that have meaning for all my life. This sound stops me create fear of  one billion hell inside of me.

Ooooooohhhhhhhhmmmmmmm

I aware of the meaning of that sound.

That sound have 4 sounds joined together.

1. All the illusion comes from our blindness and create ahhhhhh unlimited suffering.
2. Life tries to understand how to get rid of it. Ohhhhhh. They know, understanding appear and create awakened sound.
3. Life finally find a way to escape out of suffering. Finally release that suffering, hmmmmmm. Life become joyful. Joy comes from suffering disappearing.
4. Finally, when you feel content, you reach complete silence sound. Smiling appear.

When the meaning of that sound appears, the fear in my heart from getting smashed disappears.  When the HOM sound appear and rise in my heart, I feel joy and I realize all consciousness begins lost in reincarnation. I start to feel my heart is so pure, so calm, because I am aware life is this process of suffering, awakening, joyful, content.

From content, my awareness has no judgment anymore, pureness make me realize I am empty, like life is empty. When you don’t have any personal judgment from any feeling of you to towards anything you can become the stage of Emptiness god.

Emptiness god has no form, in fact consciousness has no form, so you are all the possibility of emptiness god. Just like once I experienced it.

I realize the universe didn’t shrink back, it is my consciousness becoming more free and exploding out at such fast speed, my consciousness become unlimited and more empty and become higher speed than the speed at which the universe explodes.

Actually universe didn’t get destroyed, every little piece of dust, of life starts to blink light lights and when I am aware of every angle becoming light I back into it. The universe becomes big again, and then I am aware I can stay inside the universe and be aware of that universe but also stay outside and be aware of all the dust and still connect to both and then I know I am empty and I start to divide that awareness and go into each galaxy and start to expand to cover all galaxy out of universe and realize there is more universes and the more I discover I realize the size of universe is so small while the empty space between universes are trillion, times bigger than the universe itself. Compare to empty space, universe space is a joke, one breath inside one little bacteria.

No form is the strongest power. NO form come from not any comparing or judgmental heart. Totally aware of how life works and not involved to it. I into the stage connected to empty space, create new ego, without any ego feeling, very delicate, different type of joy, because there is no border, there is no comparing, there is not even time, emptiness have no limitation, the taste of no limitation itself has nothing you can compare it to.

Even ego god feeling itself is almost just like one breathe of illusion compared like bubble destroyed but empty feeling, remain forever.

I start feel my consciousness is that emptiness, as god, without any judgment and just aware the universe as a little sand, as inside see that life is that amazing all consciousness create those illusions.

Level Five: Everything is everything: Silent as being empty.

Post script.

Even the first five stages of Everything is Everything is really unreal, after many years in my mind I cannot categorize it. Because when you are back to normal life, my life become more real, but I know, even in stage 3 I don’t even think about human, or earth, when I experience seeing the whole universe, how can I take being inside that universe, in earth, in a little human body as serious? And I want to accept now as present as human illusion I have to learn to accept that experience as not serious but I truly experience that, how am I going to lie to myself I cant lie to myself, when you experience something that extreme, that sharp, the most crazy of course, why I come back?

Because as the galaxy ego god I don’t even want to think about being human, definitely not, who would want to have this eternal power to see galaxies move so astonishingly, amazingly, non-stop content and joy like more than one billion orgasm, in a billion unlimited way, excitement back to human being experience, unlimited way of suffering and limitation. Human being totally out of my mind.

I don’t even want to be a human. Especially after I discover consciousness can become as pure as empty space. And especially after I make whole universe become even small. The god feeling become more pure but even pure, that ego actually rising to the most, because you know nothing can destroy you. Because you are the same as universe, part of the changing power that disappear, so if you are the universe as a universe god, you die with it, but not empty space, empty space, no border, not any power can destroy, so that content there is no way I can describe as a human, or words existing  and that stage definitely not want to come back as a human or take living as a human so serious back on the earth. That is reality!

While my ego was living almost silent, content, no limitation, no destroy, no time, no beginning no end, no border of empty existing, free to see all the illusion, free to exist and feel all the other existing without any judgment with no interest to judge and just accepting, life can be that way, life without comparing, life is that way, should be that way, never get destroyed, satisfied, that is the way life should be.

More empty, more satisfied, see more and more universe I see all universe they are united together, become one part of something. And it make me curious, I already as a consciousness without any form so curious has no mind, no thinking, just directly intention, so that intention make me strongly want to be aware what are all these united universes trying to show, and that make me more sharp, more free, more empty, finally to realize all the universes together was in a Bodhisattvas meditation form and all the universes are just joined as one part of his shoulder and arm, empty space, and realize that this bodhisattva is built by unlimited universes and again my ego being empty god, I am the most, nothing can destroy me, I am most complete and free, humble. From most extreme ego, I am humble as I have no clue, as emptiness, no form consciousness, I can into every space, see every galaxy, see every lifeform, and feel their desire, feel their passion, feel their emotion, feel there lost in blind reincarnation, and it is all just illusion BUT I can aware of this lifeform into unlimited universe but I cant be aware of what kind of consciousness can form them all back together in such an amazing meditation form, and that smiling that body language, that line whole body posture is just shine something holy.

It bring all the respect from my sincere heart up and finally I realize I was just an ego consciousness knowing nothing about life I maybe able to see through illusion but I never able to see through my own ego.

I learned from seeing that bodhisattva, he show me through his eyes, see through all but really see through all with care, see through all with eternal compassion, I don’t have any of that, I’m just selfish empty ego consciousness, free and enjoy no power can harm me but I don’t understand what is compassion, but I look at that universe bodhisattva, existing holy form, his eyes, his movement, it teaches teaches me love.

Teach me not love because illusion, love because awakened.

Awakened is free, awakened is joyful, but not everybody is able to awaken but everybody has the potential and that is the love, to share something you feel is the most amazing to the other. Bodhisattva would do that for all the unawakened consciousness who are still lost in suffering, they are in mediation to feel to find a way to create a possibility, create and send a message and help them to awaken, help them to be free, help them to develop wisdom and compassion and there heart is a meditation because it never change, living in a will of true loving and true see through illusion without ego, and I don’t have any of this. My heart sincerely bow and that make me feel want to bow, and that feeling make my form appear, I have an energy form sitting in a lotus, and then lotus guide me and then I see more, next to the universe meditation  bodhisattva next farther away I see Buddha, surrounded my many bodhisattva and some are sleeping, but there pose is smiling, posture same perfect, same in deep aware of every life and deep want to eternal support every life to help them release suffering and to be awakened and deeply want to bring the most amazing thing for every life and they in that they create different kind of illusion, pure land illusion to help every life, four eternal heart illusion, and I know I don’t have any of that.

And then I heard without any words its not Sanskrit, not Chinese, its just a simple loving feeling, open your compassion, start your journey. You know life is illusion, you are awake, and why you still don’t care all the other life lost by illusion and create non stop reincarnation suffering, where is your care you have it and because of that I agree, I respect I humble want to learn compassion, my earth memory back.

And I back to the earth.

Back to Earth

The whole feeling is timeless, or feel like 15 minutes but what is reality? 8 hours. My friends found me and they were so scared, we thought you were in front of us but then my intuition tell me we keep chasing in front of us but then you must be behind us, we have to go back it is getting dark we so happy to find you.

And I look at them and I know my compassion journey just start. And I look at them and I know I cannot tell them anything. I just sit smiling and say no worries I have a great time and laugh. When I see Buddha and Bodhisattva, that is Everything is Everything. We all have that compassion heart, that awakened heart, but because we are so lost by so many stupidness, we don’t even aware how valuable it is sharing wisdom and love towards every life.

My existing is only for that purpose since that day.

Summary:

Each level of meditation has the same words in the name but it is said differently:

1. Level One: Everything is everything: Wild, excitement, extremely amazing
   1. The first one, because you are aware of all the changing power and that is extremely exciting, and wild and free, and feeling everything is everything, excitement, woooooahhh, joy, extremely amazing speed itself is extreme adrenaline for every consciousness and non-stop into it.

2. Level Two: Everything is Everything: Extreme calm
   1. But after I concentrate deep you are aware of the essence you realize there is nothing there. Just something that appears and disappears, but between it is really nothing, you realize it was actually emptiness, illusion to change there and aware of that essence make me see all life, all the appearing form, and that become wooooah, actually create calm everything is everything.

3. Level Three: Everything is Everything: Amazing content, warm, joyful heart.
   • But then start to realize there is a power that is aware of all of this its my consciousness, my consciousness feel free and joy and realize truly know what is illusion what is empty, the joyful heart in every life. So that heart is Everything. It is hidden in every body hidden consciousness, when wisdom is enough it open and become amazing content. Warm and joyful heart.

4. Level Four: Everything is Everything: Is strongest united ego power, 100% content, no doubt
   • Become centre of the galaxy and big bang shooting out all the other galaxy.

5. Level Five: Everything is Everything: Silent as being empty.
   • Almost silent, content, no limitation, no destroy, no time, no beginning no end, no border of empty existing, free to see all the illusion, free to exist and feel all the other existing without any judgment with no interest to judge and just accepting, life can be that way, life without comparing, life is that way, should be that way, never get destroyed, satisfied, that is the way life should be.

6. Level Six: Everything is Everything: Compassion heart, awakened heart.
   • Simple loving feeling, open your compassion, start your journey. You know life is illusion, you are awake, and why you still don’t care all the other life lost by illusion and create non stop reincarnation suffering, where is your care